Everything is changing little one. Everything is changing and I’m trying to hold on while letting go at the same time. In a few months it will no longer be just your papa and I as it has been for so long. What will that be like? How will things be different, and what things will stay the same? Will we forget what life was like before you? Will we forget what we were like before you?
I always believed that the moment I fell pregnant I would become a different person. But I was wrong. I’m learning that I am different, but yet I’m not. I exist as I am both with you and separate to you. I’m shedding one skin as I’m growing another and they are overlapping in many places. I’m changing but staying the same. Or at least I think I am.
As impatient as I am to meet you I could stay in this stage forever. I love not knowing what each day is going to bring, I love that I sometimes forget you’re there because I know it’s exactly where you’re meant to be and it just feels so right, I love going through such a wonderful transformation with your papa, and, I just love you.
You can see all the letters I’m writing to my son here